June 2, 2016
Not having had any weed for roughly 2 months we just shared a joint and did it ever work! You see, I’ve also been getting off a highly addictive painkiller called Lyrica and it’s a real freaking hassle. I get these waves of anxiety and depression and pain. But it’s all in the neurotransmitters. I can’t see it. Nobody can look at it or realize that it’s there; it doesn’t even really hurt that much. It’s just very, very distracting. I wind up having virtually no desire do much of anything and yet I’m constantly complaining about having nothing to do. I’ve got to break this cycle now!.
Oh, by the way, both marijuana and Lyrica claim to be analgesic, antidepressants (in my case demonstrably so in both cases) but unlike the Lyrica the marijuana is not highly addictive. When I quit it several months ago I had no anxiety; maybe one or two nights of troubles getting to sleep till my body adjusted. The Lyrica on the other hand I have cut down the dosage by 50% have been staying on this for the last two months and every day just seems to get worse and worse. I have sleeplessness, strange dreams, anxiety, depression and pain in waves. I’m also noting a significant loss of mobility; things that I’ve been able to do all along I seem to be having trouble with including getting up in the morning. I really should make the choice here; do I go back on the Lyrica to get rid of the anxiety and pain or do I go back to the pot with the same affect but natural ingredients and nonaddictive? I just don’t know if the marijuana by itself will be adequate for the pain, I know it works for the anxiety and depression though. But I would like to try it first. I have to talk to Betsy about this. Or, Do I just tough it out? I think the agony is in the waiting; everything moves so slowly here.
So no more excuses; I must get started on something to occupy my time or I’m going to go out of my mind. So what better time than for me to start working on this model/game?
So here I am about halfway through Lee Smolin’s, The Life of the Cosmos and he is discussing self-organizing patterns in the universe; from the galactic clusters to the subatomic particle. Think fractal, think scale, patterns that reappear and interact. He’s come to the point where he proposes that these patterns and expressions are what it may really be all about. He appears to be having a problem with certain aspects of what we perceive as reality not being validated with these underlying patterns.
To me this brings together an absolutely amazing… how shall I say it; overlay of patterns.
So, what if we take what Smolin is saying but, instead of using the three-dimensional system he’s “imagining” in and working with, we use Fuller’s four dimensional system as our gameboard. Keep in mind that with the Dymaxion gameboard the flat surface of the board actually represents three dimension with the fourth dimension being perpendicular to the surface. Is it possible that being able to lay out your parameters on a flat, three-dimensional surface, might make it much easier to see what that fourth dimension needs to be. Maybe even so strange as X, Y, Z, or Yellow. For Smolin does recognize gaming as an important part of self organization. So using this new system with my gameboard, and a certain set of rules, can we generate spiral galaxies? Can we create algorithms that mimic biological systems? Keeping in mind we have an extra dimension to play with while tweaking our parameters.
I have to put the following into some type of priority order:
⦁ IVM model
⦁ Life Rules
⦁ Relative Scales
⦁ Parameter Controls
For right now I’m going to continue with Smolin and come back to this list periodically and update it regularly.
If anybody has any interest in this email me at donmcybertect@Gmail.com